Here are things I like to tell myself:
▽ I'm not good at anything.
▽ I have no purpose.
▽ There is no reason for me to be alive.
▽ I can't do anything right.
▽ No one likes me.
What a fun internal monologue! This looping tape is hard to shut off or ignore completely. The edges are sharp. The wounds are open. I've been repeating these mantras for way too long.
But one thing I realized and found helpful is accepting them as truth and then turning them into positive If-Then statements. BEHOLD!
▽ If I'm not good at anything, then it doesn't matter how well or poorly I perform! I can just do what I do and enjoy the doing of it!
▽ If I have no purpose, then I am free to wander this earth unencumbered with higher calling. I can spend whole days doing nothing of any particular importance and it's ok!
▽ If there is no reason for me to be alive, then that takes the pressure off the whole crazy thing. Ah, a deep sigh of relief I exhale now that the burdens of reason and meaning have been removed from my shoulders!
▽ If I can't do anything right, then the stress of succeeding does not apply to me. With no power comes no responsibility!
▽ If no one likes me, then fuck them.
I hope you leave here feeling empowered!